Day 17 November 5th, 2020

The RPT came into my room to do my breathing treatment and she was kind of rude, almost acted as if I brought this on myself. She said my lugs were not pushing air so she put me on 10L of oxygen. She said I should be at 100% o2 which is probably correct but even when I am not sick I am not above 97. I feel like I keep having to explain the fact that I was born two months early and that I do have Asthma that normally is controlled until sick.

They keep pushing prone but I really didn't have the energy to even move, I would go from side to side and lay my bed flat so I could lay like I would at home. The biggest thing was not to be on my back all the time. Most of your lungs they said are located in your back and when the fluid gets stuck back there or further down it causes more harm than good.

I got my first round of plasma and I have to say it was kind of strange to see. It's white and even though I knew what color it was, it was still strange to see. I also started my second dose of the Remvisider along with the Doxycycline, Dexamethasone, two different types of inhalers, and a variety of vitamins, which let me tell you go out and by them now! (Zinc, D, C)

They actually let me sleep from 1 am to 5 am and I really needed it. It felt amazing and I still wanted to sleep more, but they did my vitals and shift change for nurses, then it was breakfast and I was actually hungry. I really didn't do anything but rest as I felt just so drained. I talked to family and friends throughout the day. I picked at my lunch when it came and the nurse said "You might want to eat that, they may get upset". I was already going through it mentally so I just shut down and slept till dinner time when they started doing all my vitals and labs again.

Even though I was tired the more I did sleep the better I started to feel. I felt like I was improving but my stats would just drop all of sudden and it would freak me out. I still don't understand how you can be "normal" and then all of sudden just drop.

When I woke up I had to ask them to provide me with a few things to clean up. I had been coughing to the point that I was peeing my pants and I just wanted to be clean. They brought in an aide to change the bedding and provide me with a clean gown etc. But my hair was nasty yucky and I was sweating and had no deodorant, I badly needed to brush my teeth. I am particular about my hygiene in all ways and when you are stuck in a way dependent upon others it makes you feel less than human. All I wanted to do was cry and I kept telling Mike how dirty I felt. I couldn't reach anything, I mean I would have been good with just a wash cloth at that point on my face.

I will be back later to update more of my blog. This is a lot and it really does make my head spin.